Thursday, 14 Jan 10

This is what I've eaten on this day. I will do a separate blog in a minute.

2 protein bars, 1 protein shake
apple, yogurt
SUPPER: Fried Green Tomatoes - Ardmore, TN
1 oz fried fish
2- 2" diameter meatballs
tomatoe-squash-onion mix
cabbage
1/2 c. mash potatoes
1/2 cornbread muffin
salad
3 bites banana pudding

Ok guys, I've been up since 1:45 this morning, as usual to use the restroom, and sometimes I can't get back to sleep, which this is one of those mornings. FIRST THING I MEAN FIRST THING on my mind was "OH My Gosh-What did I do last night" "Why did I do that last night"?!?!?! I've been beating myself up as I do a lot of times. It's something in my brain. By the way, I ordered a series of 9 DVD's, 2 books, 1 workbook entitled "The True You". It encompasses EVERYTHING, every emotion a person goes through, there's a lot of medical type stuff in this, and it's all Christian based. It's a bible study, and I can be in front of a TV with it. :) So pray for me. This is a battle!!! It doesn't have to be mine, it can be God's and I know he can take care of it much better than me.

Oh--I heard someone say that they are going to have 13 christmas bins---well I'd like them to know that we have provided them one full bin--thanks to the 75% off bargains I've been coming up on from time to time and we'll be bringing it to them when we come to visit in March!

Here's what happened yesterday on my way home, picture this:

Kerry: Honey, you meeting me at the gym today?
Me: NO-remember I have a haircut at 4:00, and by the time I'm through, it'll be 5:00, and by the time I get home it'll be close to 6:00, and by the time I eat a bite and dress out it'll be close to 7:00, no way---that's too late to start for me.
Kerry: OK--well I'm going to the gym.
Me: Ok honey, I love you babe!
4:00--Haircut-I'm out of there by 4:40---Hmmmm, OK, I'm going to call my baby see what he's doing.
Phone's answered.
Me: Hi Honey, what are you doing
Kerry: I'm about to the house, I'm fixing to head to the gym in a bit.
(I'm looking at the clock in the car and I'm thinking, I could be at the gym myself at 5:30, hm, not bad)
Me: I'm in the mood for an egg sandwich, with a slice of turkey bacon on it. I think I'll make me that for supper.
Kerry: Sounds good.
Me: Yea, that's what I'm going to do, hadn't decided on the gym yet!
Me: Well---Green Tomatoes sounds good doesn't it. I haven't had vegies in a while, I've been good, I haven't been out in 2 weeks, I've been preparing at home, I DESERVE THIS!!! I've worked hard for this!!!! HAVE I! Have you seen those scales come down regularly, daily!!!! No.......... OK-SO I've worked HARD! Get over it Kathy.
Kerry: Mmmmm, sounds good!!!!! ChaChing! That's always the clue for me, when I hear those words from him, I'm thinking YES we get to go out and relax!!! Relax, you call that relaxing. You know what time I was up this morning thinking about how relaxed I was trying to get my full self out of that booth and into the car last night.
And if that wasn't enough, you should've tasted all the SALT in that food. I thought I was eating fairly reasonable, until I bit into the tomato/squash/onion soupy stuff, I think the salt lid accidentally fell off into that, and the cabbage, oh my goodness, you could taste the butter/oil mixture in it. No wonder it was so good. So - today's a new day. It's 3:54 am, I'm on my treadmill at 4:00, I better get this 2d cup of coffee down quick. If I can go 2 miles in 40 minutes on #3 on the treadmill, if I put it on speed #6 for the same time, if I'll go 4 miles in 40 minutes. I'm thinking work hard work this off hard SO when I go to weigh in Monday, I'll have it off, by the way, I do have Fri,Sat,Sun to work Thur off. No---I shouldn't have that mentality. That's not the weigh to think. Oh well, today's another day! Thank God. I do have a roof over my head, food, water, health, God bless the ones in Haiti.