Thank God It's Friday---

Everything is good. I've been on a roll at the gym. I'm managing to work out on weights 3 days a week plus cardio. I've got an appt with the owner at 5:30 this afternoon, she's going to walk me around starting on the treadmill and taking me to the back for cardio and the other machines. I'm 52, going through menopause, my body is changing, I'm trying with God's help to lose my weight. And I'd like to see if she can give me a plan, something that will rev up my metabolism. (Well-we've had ice and snow today and Lea lives in Lewisburg, TN, more North than us, so we both had to cancel) I had to give up my other plan for a while. I hate that I had to do it, but economically, well you know the rest---rising cost of food, gas, etc. etc. I did good yesterday. I'm proud of myself. Rosie took Vicky and I to supper at the Olive Garden, and I had the salad, of course, there's dressing, but oh well, I didn't eat much. I had the grilled steak/chicken/vegies skewers, NO SEASONING. Plain!!! I added pepper to them. They were good. I was glad to know when I weighed this morning I was down one pound. Thank the Lord for that. I've got a salad made in the fridge waiting on me for supper tonight.

I hope we get to make it to Montgomery in the morning. We're having our CMA Seasons of Refreshing going on tomorrow and we'd really like to make it. Hopefully the road won't be bad. The snow is pretty outside.

We're anxious to get on our bikes and get out and about with our friends and CMA riders. I haven't been on my bike in 2 years, but hopefully will get back on it. It just makes me nervous. When I was 30 pounds heavier and had to be put on meds for blood pressure, and other stuff, PLUS going through the change, and YES I've had issues with that, but their better, I didn't want to ride. I love to ride. There's nothing like hitting the road and smelling that fresh air and enjoying Gods creation. It'll be good.


OK--it's 4:09 and I've been binging a little bit, not much, just tuff not on my plan, for instance I've had a bowl of 15 bean soup with crackers w/sausage in it and a half of a lite bologna and ff cheese sandwich. I'll be OK.

Please Tell Me Why-Can I Get A Witness

Why is it I cleaned out all of our dresser drawers 4 weeks ago, threw away all socks w/out a pair, paired up all socks again neatly, and now I can't find the other match to these?!?! WHERE did they go? Kerry says we have a "Sock Eating Dryer". I don't know. Will we find them later when we're walking around in a mall and something is hanging off of our shirt, or pants?
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Why is it it get's used on 99.999% of the mornings and sometimes in the evenings, our treadmill still collects dust. You've heard the ole saying "I'll bet this and that's sitting around drawing dust". Well this thing is not sitting, and I'm not either. I'm busting my tail end trying to get in shape, when this morning I happened to look down at the clothes hanger that I need to pick up, the Christmas gift from 4 years ago that's still under the bed (hhmm, yard sale?!?!) and the box over on the right with the Kirby Vacuum accessories that's around 60 years old (hmmmm, attic). And the bed--it'll get made next time we have company, right now, it's Samantha's. It wasn't too long ago when I dusted it off---what?!?! 3 months ago!!! I can understand my Bible being dusty, (which I am trying to do better on) but my treadmill. *******************************************************************************

Why is it people will park in a handicap spot and they look like they are in better shape than I am?!?! Why!!!! Most of the time these people do not have a handicap license plate, they've got one of those kind that is placed in the glove box that they can take out and put over their mirror. You know what I'm talking about! God rest Mother----every Saturday either Vicky and I would take Mom outfor the day, errands, groceries, or MAYBE just because she'd been cooped up in the house all week---it would be nice to get away---and enjoy herself. duh! But anyway I used to get so irritated when we would go to the commissary and there would be no handicap spots available. We would ride and ride--see Mom was in a wheelchair, almost 90 years old, I would think she would deserve one. I'd see people flying back to their car with groceries in tow like they were in a hurry to get to the wade runner waiting on them at the lake.
I could go on an on, ya'll get the jest of it. Hmmm, it just dawned on me, I have one in my glove box, YES!!! Kerry's mom gave me hers to keep in my car when we were in Gatlinburg back in November. Ahhhh, man that thing came in handy. Especially when we went to the Outlet Mall in Pigeon Forge and I believe half of the southeast was in that mall, and all I wanted to go to was Kirkland's, and PRAISE THE LORD, he answered my prayer and placed us in a handicap spot right in front of the store.

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Why is it that they say popcorn is so healthy for you, but I can't lose weight by eating it twice in two days as a snack. SODIUM,SODIUM,SODIUM. I know it's not on my plan. And I know I shouldn't, but it tasted so good watching "You Got Mail" yesterday. Looks like I'm going to have to wear my fake wedding rings I bought at Kohl's two years ago ($6), instead of my diamonds. Down with the water today!!!

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Why is it that when it says size 12 and it feels like a 10 going on why don't they say size 10. Not 12! Why? I know what your thinking! Ugh---Kathy---why not try a 14! No No NO--I was in a 12 yesterday.

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My WHY'S for this beautiful rainy Sunday Morning--off to Sunday School and Worship. Why??? Because God has been so good to me and it's the least I could do for him. My goodness, a couple of hours out of a 7-day week it's not going to hurt---In fact---IT'S THE BEST!

Hello My Blog-No Time No Write!

OK, I know your very beautiful on the front, and I still realize I'm missing an "S" in my last name, still can't figure out how to fix that. Oh Well!

I've just been so busy, and I'm not one to hang out on the computer. I might to into facebook in the evening real quick once or twice, but don't linger. I check emails, but to sit here night after night, it's overwhelming to me. I'm sorry. But I'm here now.

Two weeks ago tomorrow I started back at the gym. I had been lax for about 2 months--during Christmas/Thanksgiving, you know how that goes................

I had told myself that I was going to start weights. At my age (which will be 52 Tuesday) I need to get some strength. I walk on the treadmill, I do the elliptical, I ride the bike, but that's it. I've never really been structured here at this gym for that. I have done weights in my lifetime, and could tell a difference. Don's Gym when I lived at Brittany Point. I was buffed. Had a thick neck;~

So I'm enjoying my time at the gym again. It's not easy going. I hate to have that dreaded feeling, I'm trying to be uplifted, positive about it. As I was telling Kerry Thursday at the gym (during the tornado warning at 5 Points) this has GOT to be a lifetime thing. We have GOT to do this as long as we live. Right now, it's up and getting to work, getting off and getting to the gym. I don't want to let it run my life, hopefully the session on The True You, 2 DVD's I believe are going to talk about exercising too much, how to balance. But right now, I'm going mostly during the week, Wednesday though I made it to church, 2 weeks now. I've been lax on going on Wed nights, the devil has been stealing my joy. GO BACK WHERE YOU CAME FROM! I loved Wed services, hopefully I'll be faithful.

As far as foods, this is what I've had to eat since Monday. I have kept a foodsheet, it's not neat, BUT I've kept it up.

I have these everyday:
BREAKFAST: Protein Bar
SNACK: Fruit (Most of the time apple)
LUNCH: Shake
MID-AFTERNOON: Protein Bar
DAIRY: Mostly 80 cal yogurt from Krogers (CARBmaster) They are so good! Love the texture.

SUPPER:
MONDAY: 3 oz chicken (crock pot-nothing but pepper), 1 boiled egg, 2 40-cal bread,2cups salad, lite dressing
TUESDAY: 2 oz chicken, 2 eggs, 2 sl 40-cal bread, salad, lite dressing
WEDNESDAY: 2 broiled tilapias-season with pepper only, sweet potato (too large I think), salad w/lite dressing, I did have sf choc pudding instead of yogurt this day. Craving chocolagte
THURSDAY: 2 turkey bacon, 2 eggs, 2 sl 40-cal bread (basically a bacon and egg sandwich)
FRIDAY: 4 oz tenderloin (had in crock pot all day-no seasoning-I added pepper on my plate), salad w/egg w/lite dressing (I DID HAVE A BAG OF POPCORN AT WORK-shouldn't have, but did, it's over with-DONE, let's move on)

EXERCISE:
Every morning at 4:30 treadmill, 40 minutes.
GYM: Monday, Tuesday, skip Wednesday, Thursday, skip Friday, will go today, God willing.

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Kerry and I are going on a cruise this year and we have booked 13 rooms so far with our church. We're excited. One of our stops on this cruise is in a picturesque peninsula of Labadee, Haiti.
We've been there before, it's beautiful, beaches, lounge chairs, grass hut type umbrellas around for shade to place your lounge chair, all kinds of water sports, food, beverages, it's so relaxing. When this earthquake happened over a week ago in Haiti, I thought about thought. I thought-oh no what's it gonig to be like at the time we go, are we going to be bombarded with Haitains wanting to braid our hair, do this do that, please give me money, that type thing. Pressure?!?!
Will they try to rob us--not that we have money, but you know what I mean. with Haitains leaving the country, will they trek their way there?!?! Will we have a good time while 100 miles away, their in shambles, 100's of thousands of deaths. What will it be like for us in 8 more months. I hope the ones going from our church will not be upset, be mad at me and Kerry for making them come here. Well I went online to the RoyalCarribean website and they had an article there. They have security there, there's a fence around the island. They have pledged $1M to the country, and everytime a ship comes to the island, they are dropping off a lot of food and supplies that they picked up from another port. And RC employs several hundred Haitains, so that's income, and also RC pays Haiti $6 for every cruiser that is on their ship that comes into this paradise island. So this is helping their economy. Some are saying "How can you sit there and say, "Waiter, bring me a drink' while I'm on a private beach...knowing tht 100 miles away, people are dying." I thought about that too (not the drinking part-remember church family going), then I thought we might be a shining light to someone that has been hurt during this. Just a thought. Anyway, we're excited about going. Kerry wants to zipline! Oh Lord---I hope my weights off by then---hope that cable holds me.

Food Sheet

I will be bringing a food sheet in today!

Back in 1974

That's me alright! Probably wearing a pair of bell bottom, hip hugger jeans. I was in the 10th grade

Friday, 15 Jan 10

TREADMILL: 50 MIN, 2.8 MILES
Watched James Dobson's series where he was talking about "The True You" series, heard clips from these physicians, I'm anxous to get the series in. Also, been watching CNN/FOX News on the Haiti situation. So sad. I just hope their government isn't keeping these funds to themselves, because they are still running it. I hope every donation will be going to the victims, 100% of it, um!

Thursday, 14 Jan 10

This is what I've eaten on this day. I will do a separate blog in a minute.

2 protein bars, 1 protein shake
apple, yogurt
SUPPER: Fried Green Tomatoes - Ardmore, TN
1 oz fried fish
2- 2" diameter meatballs
tomatoe-squash-onion mix
cabbage
1/2 c. mash potatoes
1/2 cornbread muffin
salad
3 bites banana pudding

Ok guys, I've been up since 1:45 this morning, as usual to use the restroom, and sometimes I can't get back to sleep, which this is one of those mornings. FIRST THING I MEAN FIRST THING on my mind was "OH My Gosh-What did I do last night" "Why did I do that last night"?!?!?! I've been beating myself up as I do a lot of times. It's something in my brain. By the way, I ordered a series of 9 DVD's, 2 books, 1 workbook entitled "The True You". It encompasses EVERYTHING, every emotion a person goes through, there's a lot of medical type stuff in this, and it's all Christian based. It's a bible study, and I can be in front of a TV with it. :) So pray for me. This is a battle!!! It doesn't have to be mine, it can be God's and I know he can take care of it much better than me.

Oh--I heard someone say that they are going to have 13 christmas bins---well I'd like them to know that we have provided them one full bin--thanks to the 75% off bargains I've been coming up on from time to time and we'll be bringing it to them when we come to visit in March!

Here's what happened yesterday on my way home, picture this:

Kerry: Honey, you meeting me at the gym today?
Me: NO-remember I have a haircut at 4:00, and by the time I'm through, it'll be 5:00, and by the time I get home it'll be close to 6:00, and by the time I eat a bite and dress out it'll be close to 7:00, no way---that's too late to start for me.
Kerry: OK--well I'm going to the gym.
Me: Ok honey, I love you babe!
4:00--Haircut-I'm out of there by 4:40---Hmmmm, OK, I'm going to call my baby see what he's doing.
Phone's answered.
Me: Hi Honey, what are you doing
Kerry: I'm about to the house, I'm fixing to head to the gym in a bit.
(I'm looking at the clock in the car and I'm thinking, I could be at the gym myself at 5:30, hm, not bad)
Me: I'm in the mood for an egg sandwich, with a slice of turkey bacon on it. I think I'll make me that for supper.
Kerry: Sounds good.
Me: Yea, that's what I'm going to do, hadn't decided on the gym yet!
Me: Well---Green Tomatoes sounds good doesn't it. I haven't had vegies in a while, I've been good, I haven't been out in 2 weeks, I've been preparing at home, I DESERVE THIS!!! I've worked hard for this!!!! HAVE I! Have you seen those scales come down regularly, daily!!!! No.......... OK-SO I've worked HARD! Get over it Kathy.
Kerry: Mmmmm, sounds good!!!!! ChaChing! That's always the clue for me, when I hear those words from him, I'm thinking YES we get to go out and relax!!! Relax, you call that relaxing. You know what time I was up this morning thinking about how relaxed I was trying to get my full self out of that booth and into the car last night.
And if that wasn't enough, you should've tasted all the SALT in that food. I thought I was eating fairly reasonable, until I bit into the tomato/squash/onion soupy stuff, I think the salt lid accidentally fell off into that, and the cabbage, oh my goodness, you could taste the butter/oil mixture in it. No wonder it was so good. So - today's a new day. It's 3:54 am, I'm on my treadmill at 4:00, I better get this 2d cup of coffee down quick. If I can go 2 miles in 40 minutes on #3 on the treadmill, if I put it on speed #6 for the same time, if I'll go 4 miles in 40 minutes. I'm thinking work hard work this off hard SO when I go to weigh in Monday, I'll have it off, by the way, I do have Fri,Sat,Sun to work Thur off. No---I shouldn't have that mentality. That's not the weigh to think. Oh well, today's another day! Thank God. I do have a roof over my head, food, water, health, God bless the ones in Haiti.

Wednesday, January 13th

13 more day till my birthday!
4:15 up an at em'-----
1 liter of water drank
45 minutes treadmill, 2.5 miles
5:15-6:00 pm - elliptical at home OFF TO CHURCH TO SEE WHO I CAN BE A BLESSING TO!

BREAKFAST: coffee crunch bar
SNACK: Apple
LUNCH: Shake, 80 cal yogurt
SNACK: peanut butter bar
SNACK: Instead of going to the machine w/one of my moments, I ate a can of asparagus
SUPPER: Medium Sweet Potato
Chicken Salad (3 oz of crock pot chicken I made overnight, 2 eggs, 2 table may)
I went over 1 oz of protein, I'm not beating myself up for that.
CHURCH TONIGHT: I went and was blessed by being in Cubbies, they needed help with the 3 yr olds which means they get snacks, I was tired, so I ate a HANDFUL OF GOLDFISH.
TWO HOTWINGS---Kerry made hime some and I caved in about 9:00 pm

This is something I really need to work on, it's been a problem all my life. As always, this is a new day!


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Tuesday, 12 Jan 10

BREAKFAST: Coffee Crunch Bar
SNACK: Apple, Boiled Egg w/Laughing Cow Wedge (2 prot)
LUNCH: Chocolate Mint Shake
SNACK: PB Bar
Before I left work: Sweet potato
Went to gym:
30 min elliptical, 15 min treadmill, 30 min weights, 20 min treadmill @ 7:30 pm
HOME: Turkey hot dog, egg beaters, my homemade vegie soup, slice of bread with jelly on it.


I know I went over on my protein, I bought the turkey hot dogs and all have been eaten by Kery except one. I wanted one fried up with the eggbeaters. Do you know how much sodium that sucker had in it, over 400!!!! That will make me intake sodium. I'll bet my rings won't fit me in the morning all because of that little biddy wienie. Oh well-it's over with.

I was feeling a little stressed today at work and right afterward had the urge to go buy popcorn out of our machine. The snack machine in our building is gone, wasn't making enough money. So if I want something out of that thing I have to walk outside to the next building. But thankfully, I talked myself out of it. I asked myself to wait a few more minutes and if it was still there, then I would do it. A few minutes passed, and I didn't even give it a second thought. Thank God Nicole came by to visit me. She's looking so cute with Quinn. She's getting on out there, and she teaches aerobics and yoga about 4 times a week.

OH--another thing, I can't find the peanut butter. Thank you Kerry! He hid it from me. God bless him. Really, I appreciate that from him.

Oh brother--I just turned the TV on and somebody is crying from Biggest Loser, talking about his tragedies, ugh! I need to change it. Oh, there's Sarah Palin on O'Reilly Factor. Much better.

Monday-January 11th

Update on my weigh in today: From Monday to Monday - 4-3/4 pounds lost. PRAISE GOD!



BREAKFAST: Coffee Crunch Bar

LUNCH: Chocolate Mint Shake

SNACK: Apple (2 tangelos), I know I'm only allowed one fruit, but it was better than my usual choice of popcorn.

SNACK: Peanut Butter Bar

80 cal yogurt (CARBmaster from Kroger's, it has 80 cal, 3 sugar, 4 carb, and 12 prot)

SUPPER: 2 - 40 cal bread w/jelly (toast)

1 oz. 50% Cabot Jalapeno Cheese

3 oz. tenderloin

cup of homemade vegie soup (no sodium) (green beans, carrots, onions, squash)

WATER: 4 liters

EXERCISE: 35 min am treadmill at home

GYM: 30 min elliptical

30 min bike

9 minutes tanning bed :)



I feel like God did help me resist temptations today. Thank God it has been easier for me today. Just one day at a time. But I'm not up in the morning yet. This will be the test. Evenings are real bad for me in fudging. Even though I've had my supper it doesn't matter, I will snack a lot of times, mainly out of habit. What do they say though, if you do something the same for 14 days, it will come easy to you.



Oh my goodness, you know what, it wasn't that bad getting back to the gym. Now that didn't hurt, did it Kathy? NO---but I never thought I would EVER get 30 minutes up on that elliptical. Normally I place a magazine over the top of it so I don't have to keep looking at the time. I have a cloth diaper I keep over our treadmill at home so I don't have to watch the time. That drives me nuts. Speaking of cloth diapers, who's is it anyway. Who was the last child to ever wear a cloth diaper, well---Aunt Kathy's got it. I use it about everyday :) But back to the elliptical----I thought I'd never get through. I noticed the TV's up there, 2 were on CNN, one was on Disney w/no close caption, and the other one wasn't working, and the other one had a boring channel turned to it. I was looking around the floor noticing things that needed to be picked up, I was watching people, not making fun of them, I was just "Bless them Lord" "Hadam" "Help them get this weight off"......... I try not to judge people at the gym, I mean look at me, do I have room to talk. Now if Kerry and I looked like THIS (please see below) wouldn't that be a different story.

Well I'll say----can we look like this again. We are both going on a cruise to the Bahamas in October with our church, I would love to look like this again. Now would I wear a two-piece - probably not, but then again, what happens in the Bahamas stays in the Bahamas. You never know what I might pick up at a souvenir shop. Oh how nice it would be to walk into Johnny Rockets and order smily face ketchuped french fries w/out feeling bad about it. Oops sorry, I'm not supposed to think this way---let's redo this. Oh how nice it would be to be walking as in exercising and pass Johnny Rockets and not even be tempted with those fries. Now that's a better mentality to have. And they have that FlowRider on the ship, it's like simulation surfing. I would love to do that, SO tomorrow I pray that God will be with me, he'll help me to resist the temptations that he knows I'll be faced with. I am really hoping this blogging will help me, I believe it will, you know it may never get ready by anyone, I may not get comments, but that's OK. I believe it will help me personally. I'm REAL BAD about writing a food journal, you don't know how many times I've heard, where's your food sheet Kathy:( So I believe this will help me.

I"m Only Human

I know, I know I said I wasn't going to eat anything else last night, but I did. That's how I am, I am aware of it, and I'm trying to face it, I've been on my knees this morning, something I'm not used to doing, but I know God was glad that I made it there. And I've walked 2 miles on my treadmill this morning. I'm not perfect, this is a problem, and I'm hoping my blogging this journey it will help me. Carolyn, this will be the food sheet that I never bring into you. Today is a new day!

The Secret"S" to my Success

10:15 PM--binged on approx 10 crackers on my way from the couch to the bed.
1:11 AM ---up to restroom and binged on 4 potato chips

Here is my food journal for the day, and I feel real good about myself and will not eat anything else tonight.
BREAKFAST: Coffee Crunch Bar
SNACK: Apple
LUNCH: Chocolate Mint Shake
SNACK: 80 calorie Yogurt
SNACK: Fudge Graham Bar
SUPPER: 4-5 oz rotisserie chicken
EXERCISE: 30 minutes bike @ home
GYM: 20 minutes weights-30 minutes elliptical

I thank God for today! Our Sunday School lesson was about being out in the wilderness, in the desert, about fighting this war of gluttony in my life. Barry and Myra were talking about the need of being responsible for our actions. I need to be working for my God. If I don't I will not be able to rest in God-will not be able to restore me, refresh me, recharge me. Spiritually speaking, I need to enter into God's rest. He reminds me Kathy, Kathy you need to rest in me. I'll take care of you, just trust in me. Believe in me. What is my spiritual condition? I can be busy busy busy about my business, but what is my heart condition. I need to guard my heart against the desert-which is life. My past is my past. I'm a child of the most high King. Whatever comes in my life, God will turn it into good. He's telling me to just relax in his arms, trust him, and He will be with me. I ask you Lord to help me with my foods, help me to resist the temptations that so beset me. I believe the secrets to my success are these, not in this order though, I still haven't gotten this picture thingy down in blogs yet :)
One of the keys to my sucess is to go to the gym. This is my gym key. I have swiped this hundreds of times, but have been laxed for a couple of months now. The holidays do that to me sometimes, but no more, thank God I made it in there today. I worked out on 9 machines, 3 sets each, 8 counts each set, and did 45 sit ups in 20 minutes. I know it was fast, I ran through them, I didn't put much thought in to them, all I know is I was pumping weights and it will eventually show in about 6 weeks. I did get a spasm though in my first two fingers in my right hand. Go figure. I don't know how that happened. I will use this key more.

Here is my bible. It has a tendency to draw dust. Shame on me. I know my God can get me through my addicition with food, and yes it is an addiction, but should I expect Him to help me if I don't try to get into his word. This is lifes application. I need to get into it. I've been lazy with it. This is something that I really need to work on. It will take commitment. Living in the flesh is so easy to do, but so wrong.

Hey-these are my knees, knobby knees, but my knees. I definitely need to hit these on the floor EVERY day. How can I expect God to help me with my demons if I don't put a little effort into it. Some of you may be able to lose weight on your own w/no help from anyone. But you know what, undoubtedly I can't because if I did, my picture would be on the maintainers board at the Diet Center. I have yet to make it that far. God willing, this year will be different.

Here's Samantha, our loving companion. She is SO precious, and she is loving being inside these days since it's so cold outside. She's our baby doll.

And this is me and my baby doll. We have our new National Champion shirts on. We were so excited to go to Dicks to pick them up. There was a line of people there, and I'm so proud of us not pushing and shoving and all. Everyone was civil.

Welcome to the Blogging World Aunt Kathy

This is your very first post. I had so much fun putting your blog together. I just love doing that kind of stuff. I couldn't decide on which picture of you and Uncle Kerry to use in the banner. I thought the kissing one was so sweet, but we can change it if you want to. These were some of the others I was trying to decide between.

You guys have been so many places...I see many great blogs in your future. Enjoy your new page and let me know if something goes coo-coo.

Love you!